Identity, The Personal Journey

Lifting Myself Up

I had my first session today and overall, I’d say it went pretty well.  I visited with a marriage and therapy therapist at our post’s family life center and we discussed some of my main concerns.  One thing that we focused on was my lack of focus on me and the overall feeling of inadequacy that has been plaguing much of my thinking.  We also discussed my struggling faith.  I admitted to her that I tended to get irritated with the day to day challenges that I have been facing, sometimes feeling very much alone.  I admitted the tendency I have towards worrying about things that many times I have no control over which also allowed me to admit being a control freak.  For the first time in my life, I find myself in a situation in which I have to let go.  I can’t be in control of everything that happens to me or to my family and I have to learn to be ok with that… to allow life to just happen and build the confidence I need to deal with how the chips may fall.  Overall, I left there feeling alot better and looking forward to my next session.  I even had homework.  My challenge is to find 3 things that I’m capable of doing for my self each day.  Today its:

  1. I bought myself some yummy Starbucks
  2. I made myself a yummy smoothie
  3. I watched a little bit of Forrest Gump and Family Feud ( I love Family Feud and for the record, would totally kick butt on that show)

I know it is not much (and most of it is food related lol) but I figure it’s a start and in a day full of give give give and do do do, it’s nice to be able to sit back and enjoy drinkable strawberries and bananas.

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